Monday, December 18, 2006

got tagged...?

Although not quite sure what this whole tagging business is about,
I guess I should tell you 5 things about me that you don't know...
that seems to be the custom once you've been tagged?

This might prove kinda difficult...or at the same time easy, not really knowing who 'you', dear reader, are! Are you a friend that knows a lot about me already or a total stranger who just happens to cross my blog?

I guess I could start by the last few things that recently happened or occurred to me, and thus revealing something about my character or self:

-Have been feeling nauseous all day, and apparently there is another flu (this time stomach flu) going around, and OF COURSE I get it too...
ergo: my immune system stinks

-I am allergic to egg (yolk), so besides the fact that they smell like nasty farts, they give me bowel cramps, and OF COURSE there is boiled egg all over the place today at lunch...
ergo: in-ah no like stinky eggs

- hm, am thinking that new readers might get impression that I stink... which shows that I am worried about other people's opinions about me, because OF COURSE I want everyone to think I am cool and great and whatnot...
ergo: insecurity and strange need to please people

- am terrible when it comes to feeling left out... especially concerning friends, which comes from wanting close bonds with people, and wanting to be important to them, and wanting them to want me to be around at all times because without me it's only half the fun OF COURSE...
ergo: well, that's just me regressing back to childhood and wanting to be the center of interest and attention - I am working on it...

- mostly I try to be happy and positive about things in life... to be zen and balanced and all that 'want to be a better person' stuff, but at the same time I embrace cynicism and love to paint black pictures of my feelings, telling myself that I need no one, because OF COURSE no one needs me...
ergo: am full of contradictions (slightly borderline even? I guess when I am stressed out its worse)

Well, there you go!
A micro slice of the huge dysfunctional cake that makes me ;)

2 comments:

Tamara said...

My sweet friend,
You did well. Am proud of you honesty and you are right, it s not half the fun wihout you, so when can we hook up for a christmas-drink?
I have a present for you.
(i must also be insecure if you would otherwise hook up with me. I must lure her with gifts...haha)

in-ah said...

christmas-drink sounds good :)
am off to germany thursday night,
so better before, ey?

how about tomorrow evening?
(if I don't get sick again...
am having stinky eggy burps on top of the nausea now... danger!)

let's phone :)
and hey, you don't have to lure me with presents!!!

cash works fine too :)